Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Medical ID Options/Links

So I have been chatting with my husband about what to tell the paramedics if they show up and I'm unable to talk.  But it's a lot of info!   And what if I'm alone with the baby?  This terrifies me, especially in light of all the recent new allergies I seem to be having (MCAD anyone???). 

I've been searching companies that produce ID bracelets and such, so here is a brief listing for those of you that may need one.  Even if you just have food allergies - these can save your life!


FREE/Templates/Cheap Options:




Free Medical Emergency Information Alert Card
 


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A pretty way to wear your ID: 
 

 
If you really want to get fancy, a USB customized with your records and info:
  
 
 
MedID Card Personal Health Record System

Review: 911 Medical ID Card features USB connection, fits in your wallet

Hope that helps!
--Claire
 

Thursday, February 16, 2012

On AltDaily.com: The Dark World...Of Valentine's Day Flowers

The Dark World… of Valentine’s Day Flowers

There is a secret world, a dark world.

A world shrouded in mystery and deceptions, lurking in the advertisements you see, hear and read.  The images forced upon you leading up to the most simultaneously loved and hated day of the year–Valentine’s Day. That world (dramatic pause) is the world of corporate flower sales.
Corporate flower sales? Really? Doesn’t sound too controversial, or mysterious, or even interesting. But these “big dogs” are ripping off unbeknownst consumers and shutting down local businesses in greater numbers each year.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

The Dysautonomia Dementors and POTS Patronus

I love Harry Potter.  I love the books, I love the movies, I love the brilliant world created by JK Rowling.

My life right now is pretty consumed by POTS and Dysautonomia, so I find myself making comparisons and analogies everywhere I look.  Which is actually not many places, considering I am home bound at this point - but does involve lots of movies, online stuff (no porn of course- I swear!), and books.

So when I last watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (while in the hospital), which is when we first see the Dementors, I burst into tears.  I saw that dark black ghostly scary looking thing sucking the life out of Harry and them him passing out with the screaming noises in the background - and all I could think of was how that was how I felt day in and day out.  That was at the height of my "dark times", but I think many people struggling with dysautonomia and other life force/energy-sucking diseases can relate. POTS, Dysautonomias, CFS/ME, Fibro, Lupus, people going through Chemo, RA, any of the "spoonie" illnesses - we all struggle with days when the Dementors swoop in and gobble up every last bit of energy, happiness, and the ability to move and function.


Times like these, I usually have "overdone" it the day before, or even a few hours before - and it all catches up with me and my body shuts down.  Literally just stops working.  And overdoing it (in my current state) involves playing on the floor with my son for 20 minutes, or wheeling into the kitchen and standing up enough to make coffee, or rocking the baby for 30 minutes while in bed when she's fussy.  Showering is the real "Dementor's kiss" of death for me - warm (no hot allowed!) water causing vasodilation (veins dilating) coupled with arms raised above heart level to wash hair making my heart rate faster equals total body shut down.  I have to plan my showing carefully.



This body shut down - or the lifeless I've-been-attacked-by-a-Dementor feeling is pretty unreal.  I've never had it this intensely before, even after all these years of dealing with POTS.  I will literally feel it coming on, know I need to be laying down, and then my muscles stop responding and working.  Then I start shaking. Its an internal shaking feeling as well, similar to adrenal surges, all wrapped up in a nice ball of pain.   All I can think of is how I must close my eyes, must sleep, and hope I wake up with a body that responds again. I then pass out and sleep for a few hours, or lay in a semi-conscious state. Just like Harry.  Except I think he woke up faster, and chocolate helps you recover from Dementors.  Oh, how I wish chocolate would fix this with me!

This ties in with the whole Spoon Theory; having to delegate your energy to avoid this horrible crash.  My (and other "spoonies") life revolves around picking and choosing what activities to do for that day - and everyone has a different tolerance level.  I used to be able to work 16 hour days, or push through making flowers for 5 days straight over Valentine's, but would get very sick and need to recover for days after.   Now it's only one to two activities a day keeps the dysautonomia Dementor away.


My POTS Patronus (the spell that creates an animal Harry and the others use to defend against the Dementors) is currently an Octopus.  No particular reason except that octopi are super cool, and I'm a marine bio geek.  They are the smartest of the cephalapods (squid, cuddlefish, octopus, etc...) and mimic their surroundings to avoid prey animals.  They have 8 legs to get things done - so I'm assuming they are multitasking type-A non-stop workers like me.  I want that back - the ability to act physically the way I feel mentally - and get up and move again to get things done.

What's your POTS (or other Spoonie) Patronus?  Why? What do you do to avoid the crashing Dementors Kiss?  I'd love to hear!

---Claire


Sunday, February 5, 2012

Get Edumacated! 5 Worthy Causes in 2012

Get edumacated in 2012!.  

Oh, and maybe pick a cause and get involved too. 

I'm a little late posting this, my health and getting my other projects up and running caused some delays.  But it's only February, so there's still plenty of time to do something to help someone else out this year, and make a difference. 

1. This is totally self serving, but the only self related topic on the list (I promise!). I have a chronic illness called POTS, part of a larger family of diseases called dysautonomiaNational Dysautonomia Awareness Week in 2011 was Sept. 12-19th, and I didn't even know about it!  2012 will be different.  We HAVE to get doctors and the general public edumacated about this extremely disabling disease - it is thought to affect over a million people in the US alone. That is too many for so few people to know NOTHING about it. There are ZERO neurologists in Hampton Roads (population ~1 million) who know/deal with it. Sucks for me.  There is lots of promising research going on, but with only a few institutions involved.
What you can do: Spread awareness! Link back, re-post, whatever it takes. Or, donate to the National Dysautonomia Research Foundation. I started a site called STOP POTS Virginia, and have teamed up with other bloggers to raise awareness at Team Fight POTS.  Follow us and spread the word!


2.   The hunt for dolphins in Japan's Taiji Cove is on.  20,000 dolphins are killed annually in this secluded cove in Japan.  Japan is a huge broker of dolphins for entertainment, and dolphin (and whale) meat is a popular delicacy there.   Dolphins are herded into the cove, where a few are picked out to be sold (usually for $30k plus each) to zoo's, theme parks, and "swim with the dolphins" programs. I won't comment on the value (or harm) of captive dolphins used for education here, that's a whole other post. But, the remaining members of the pod are all killed.  They are family groups, animals with higher intelligene, and the only other animal besides humans known to have sex for fun. They are beautiful, amazing, and deserve our protection. And they are not just killed; but drowned, beaten, shot, and all around slaughtered.  It's brutal and I was shocked to read more about it. 
What you can do:
Stop the Senseless Slaughter of Dolphins in Taiji, Japan! Support the Sea Sheppard Cove Guardians.
There is a ton of info on their site, and links to resources.   Feeling a bit more extreme? Boycott Japan's products all together, or tweet the prime minister directly
Cove Guardian Reports


3. SOMALIA and the famine in East Africa: The entire time I was in the hospital, and started feeling sorry for myself, I chanted (in my head) "I don't have cancer, and I don't live in Somalia". In Summary, according to Amnesty International: "Armed conflict between armed Islamist groups and pro-government forces continued in southern and central Somalia. Thousands of civilians were killed or injured as a result of indiscriminate attacks and generalized violence, and at least 300,000 were displaced during the year. Access by aid agencies to civilians and the displaced was further restricted by armed groups and insecurity. Humanitarian workers, journalists and human rights activists remained at risk of killings and abductions. Armed groups controlled most of southern and central Somalia and they increasingly carried out unlawful killings, torture and forced recruitment."
Also - the ENTIRE Horn of Africa is suffering a terrible famine: Kenya, Somalia, & Ethiopia have been hit hard, and children are especially susceptible to famine. 

What you can do:  Read up at Amnesty International, and check out these other sources for info and places to donate: Unicef, Childcare Woldwide, and Wold Vision.

Linda Norgrove
4.Get involved with women's rights in Afghanistan, and other war torn regions.  We think we have it rough in this counrty - and yes, the system isn't perfect (women get paid 25% less than men on average for the same positions in the workforce).  But we have RIGHTS here, and in many parts of the world women are viewed as second class citizens, and have very few rights, opportunity, or the option to even get an education.  My brother is very involved in Central Asian politics and relations, and through reading his articles I have discovered some inredible organizations fighting for women in war torn areas.  The Linda Norgrove Foundation "is a new grant-giving trust that provides funding for women and children affected by the war in Afghanistan. The Foundation provides help in the following areas: education, health, childcare, including orphanages, widows, who make up 1 in 5 of the adult population."  The foundation was set up in memory of Linda Norgrove, who was a devoted aid worker in Afghanistan that was kidnapped and killed, and sounds like an amazing woman.  You can read more about her and what the foundation is doing at their website.
Another great organization to get involved with is Women for Women.Org. "Since its creation, Women for Women International has given hope to more than 299,000 women survivors of war and conflict and helped them move toward economic self-sufficiency with our year-long program of direct aid, rights education, job skills training, and small business development." Go to their website to see how you can help - this is their program model:


5. Hookers for Jesus.  That's right - HOOKERS FOR JESUS! I saw a retweet by this group, and thought it was a joke.  I ended up reading their website from top to bottom, I was so enthralled by the founder Annie's story, and what they do to rescue women from the slavery that is prostitution, focused in Las Vegas. "The primary services and programs of Hookers for Jesus are mission driven and are designed to minister healing and restoration of individuals and families affected by sexual exploitation. The primary services of Hookers For Jesus is to Hook (Outreach), Heal (emotional & spiritual restoration) Help (Transitional Assistance) through the Destiny House program." Hook, Heal, and Help.  I love it.  They are providing safe homes for men and women, they patrol the streets of Vegas looking to help prostitutes, and do many other incredible things to save sex slaves from their captors.   Go check out their site and find one of the many ways you can get involved in this very real problem that exists today.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Visit with a DOCTARD! Brilliant!




I love this!  So many of us with under-diagnosed illnesses go through this.  I am going to stop saying POTS is rare - because more people have POTS than MS or Autism.  Our doctards need to become DOCTORS and get educated!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

An Open Letter to All Doctors (Regarding the Anxiety Bias)

Dear Doctors:

I am a female.  I have an illness.  Because of many of your biases towards young women, women in general, and POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome) sufferers, my illness was blamed on anxiety for many years.  This not only happens with my particular illness, but with many lesser known and rare illnesses.  I am not only speaking to you male doctors who are guilty of this, but the female doctors as well - who have been just as condescending and dismissive as their male counterparts.

My illness is categorized as a dysautonomia. My form of dysautonomia includes POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome), and a few others that I am now finally being tested and treated for.  It has been an almost decade long journey, and because of this "anxiety bias", I am just now getting the correct testing and treatment.  I had to let my illness progress and be so sick that I was hospitalized for almost nine months and almost died for most doctors to take me seriously.   When I first came to you for help, I was experiencing REAL symptoms.  I have no history of anxiety, depression, or any mental health illnesses.  Though - even if I did, you still should have listened to me.

After the first few years of being told I had anxiety (even with a positive Tilt Table Test for POTS), I had read the medical journals and literature, and self diagnosed myself with dysautonomia.  I brought this information to my internist and he agreed with me.  He sent me on to find treatment from doctors he thought could help me.  Unfortunately, I was told bluntly, "If you really had dysautonomia, you would be dying the hospital," and , "you just have anxiety and panic attacks, " and - my favorite - "you are just going to have to learn to deal with being dizzy and your heart racing, it is just anxiety."  These are exact quotes, all from local Neurologists, who I have found to be notoriously unhelpful, degrading, cold, and unwilling to help find the cause or treatment for my symptoms.  I have seen 8 local neurologists, who have all either dismissed me, or have told me, "I don't want to deal with you, dysautonomia is too complex, and I don't know anything about it."  These things were said after I had a positive Tilt Table Test, the standard for diagnosing POTS.

Many of my daily symptoms are similar to those of anxiety.  Anxiety responses are controlled by the same nervous system that is malfunctioning in me.  This is an except from the journal article Postural tachycardia syndrome and anxiety disorders  (by Svetlana Blitshteyn, Clinical Assistant Professor of Neurology, State University of New York at Buffalo School of Medicine and Biomedical Sciences):


"The results of the study demonstrate that patients with POTS do not have an increased prevalence of anxiety disorders compared to general population, thereby challenging a common misconception that patients with POTS are more likely to have anxiety disorders. The study by Raj et al. is in agreement with two other studies that differentiated POTS from anxiety disorders. One study showed that excessive heart rate response during a tilt table test was not due to anxiety (2), and another one demonstrated that symptoms of POTS were phenomenologically different and clinically distinguishable from panic disorder symptoms (3). Taken together, the three studies provide evidence against a hypothesis that POTS and anxiety disorders are linked either by association or causation. "

I have a release of norepinepherine (adrenalin) in response to my blood not staying where it is supposed to, and pooling in my extremities and abdomen, therefor dropping my blood pressure.  The release of norepinepherine and catecholemines in an effort to cause my vessels to constrict in POTS itself causes anxiety - through sympathetic over activity among other things.  Even changes in blood flow in the heart can result in feelings of fight or flight. Since anxiety, panic and POTS all involve the same branch of the autonomic system, the feelings are very similar.  But the test results do not lie.  I had a positive tilt table test back in 2003, and it was ignored on many occasions.  I was dismissed by many of you, especially Neurologists, and told I couldn't possibly be as sick as I was feeling, and that it was all in my head or due to anxiety.  

Throughout the almost decade of you giving me blank looks, telling me I am just having anxiety, and being forced to try medicines for depression and/or anxiety that I reacted very badly to, I have in fact, developed secondary anxiety (which I was diagnosed with in 2006 as being secondary as a result of my medical conditions).  I was not listened to in the hospital in 2011 when I had been diagnosed with 5 DVTs from the negligence of a PICC line, and I was having severe suffocating chest pains.  I was told it was "just my POTS and anxiety".  After a few days and trips back to the ER, the doctors involved finally discovered I was having multiple bilateral pulmonary embolisms, and had a 2 cm blood clot in my right atrium.  I knew something was wrong, but you did not believe me, and it almost killed me.  I also have a chemical intolerance, and react very strangely to many pharmaceutical drugs, and the reactions can be scary.  I have developed random reactions to foods and other allergens - for which I am now being tested for Mast Cell Disorders (another rare and under diagnosed group of illnesses), but once again, I was told I am over-reacting and anxiety is to blame.  I have told you about this time and time again, and am very rarely listened to.  The combination of these issues: POTS, frightening reactions to medication, anaphylactic reactions to allergens, and almost dying last year, have in fact caused me great anxiety.  I think they would cause YOU great amounts of anxiety as well.

According to an article published in The Journal of Neurology and Neurosurgical Psychiatry by Raj et al, "Patients with postural tachycardia syndrome (POTS) often appear anxious and report inattention. Patients with POTS were formally assessed for psychiatric disorders and inattention and compared with patients with attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) and control subjects."

The results and conclusions of the study:
"Results: Patients with POTS did not have an increased prevalence of major depression or anxiety disorders, including panic disorder, compared with the general population. Patients with POTS had mild depression. They scored as moderately anxious on the Beck Anxiety Inventory but did not exhibit a high level of anxiety sensitivity. Patients with POTS scored significantly higher on inattention and ADHD subscales than control subjects. These symptoms were not present during childhood.
Conclusions: Patients with POTS do not have an increased lifetime prevalence of psychiatric disorders. Although they may seem anxious, they do not have excess cognitive anxiety. They do experience significant inattention which may be an important source of disability"



I am not the only one. Time after time, women, POTS sufferers, people with rare diseases, and younger girls are told anytime they have an elevated heart rate, blood pressure issues, or random unexplainable neurological or autoimmune symptoms that they are just stressed out, have anxiety, or in the case of the New York teens recently in the news - mass hysteria.  Anxiety is a real disorder and issue for both men and women, and must be investigated - IF NO OTHER CAUSES FOR SYMPTOMS ARE FOUND.  The causes must be tested for first, not just blamed on anxiety.  Patients experiencing sudden onset of panic attack like symptoms should not be dismissed, and should be thoroughly evaluated for POTS and a number of other illnesses and disorders.  If you are incapable of testing for these things, please send your patients to a specialist who is experienced in dealing with them before dismissing them as having anxiety. 

As a doctor, you took an oath to "do no harm".  The persistent or even occasional dismissal of your patients due to anxiety like symptoms is doing harm.  Being cold, condescending, and unwilling to help guide a patient to the resources needed for them to obtain treatment, is doing harm.   Being unwilling to sit down in front of a computer or your thick medical dictionaries and look up new research relating to your patients symptoms is doing harm.  I have luckily found a group of wonderful new doctors willing to do whatever it takes to help me regain function, but many patients have not. 

I challenge all doctors out there to set your egos aside, and commit to finding answers for your patients, even if it takes a little extra time and work.  It may save them years of suffering and increase their chances of recovering or going into remission.  It may even save their life.  This is, in fact, what you pledged to do when you became a doctor.  So please start doing it.

Sincerely,
Claire Martin
Founder: STOP POTS Virginia
Owner: Bella Flora

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

The Year I Spent In A Room Not Complaining (Finding the Amazing in the Suckiness)

SO, in my first post in this now two-parter, I did a lot of focusing on the bad events and painful things going on since my health took a nose dive a year ago.  In all honesty, I feel like a huge weight was lifted in making more public many of the issues with my illness and those events, so it's out there and I don't have to put on a happy face if I'm struggling.  I am usually coping fairly well I think, and most days I'm a happy camper and have accepted my situation and am trying to deal, but there are days when I now allow myself to feel crappy and cry and be upset and I don't feel guilty about it because "there are others worse off".

My day to day life is definitely not miserable, and though I do struggle, I'm usually a pretty happy silly person.  I deal with anxiety and fear by making jokes.  They may not be good jokes, but I like laughing and seeing others laugh, so I try.  Anyone who knows my Dad knows where this comes from, I grew up with an earful or corny joking (see what I did there???).  And my life is truly filled with many reasons to be thankful, many of which would not have been possible without the downward spiral of last year.  I already mentioned my mantra: "I do not have cancer. I do not live in a hut. I am not in the Congo. I have insurance." and I repeated things like that multiple times a day, sometimes hourly.  And they are true. And they kept me grateful, and sane (kind of sane at least) through most of this whole thing.

But the most incredible thing to come from this whole experience is my daughter.  She is our miracle baby, in every sense of the cliche phrase.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

New Virginia Support Group - STOP POTS Virginia!

Due to the complete lack of local resources, I have started a group called STOP POTS Virginia.  If you are dealing with dysautonomia and or POTS in VA, or elsewhere, please connect with us!

My goal is to provide tools for patients when dealing with doctors and medical professionals who do not know about POTS and Dysautonomia. Find tips, resources, and ideas for keeping your sanity and getting the treatment you deserve.



On Facebook: STOP POTS VA page


See all the pots? Get it? 

I have big plans for launching an awareness campaign aimed at doctors, schools, and the general public (through media and literature) so others do not have to go through what I have.  I have had POTS for almost a decade, and am just now starting to find doctors willing to hep me find out why. Not acceptable!  There are too many of us out there looking for answers, being misdiagnosed, and treated like we are nuts - all because of ignorant (but sometimes well meaning) individuals. 

If enough people connect, may start a closed Facebook group for VA folks, let me know if you are interested.  Hope to hear from you!